Thursday, September 21, 2006

tears..

i got the most amazing intern assessment the other day. all positive, plenty of 'O's (scale of U - Unsatisfactory; S - Satisfactory; E - Excellent; O - Outstanding). Yippee for me. Lightened my mood.

Yesterday, one of our patients passed away. For days she missed treatment, our nurse came up to us and said "she's knocking". I gave her a puzzled face and she explained that she was 'knocking on God's door'. Its somewhat comforting knowing that she is in a better place. She came to us in a poor state - obviously had lost lots of weight, frail and emotionally ill. She had a loving partner, who would ring in for the days she could not make treatment and explain her situation. I had followed her from the very start when she came into the department. CT scanned her, planned her treatment and then treated her.

Today, one of our patients finished treatment. She is absolutely lovely. She was one of the patients who you could have a laugh with. The staff would have competitions as to how tight we could tape her thigh - I won. She was with us for a good month. Today she brought her family in - her husband and young son. So cute. The kid rocked up in a t-shirt with "My Dad rocks!" on it. He was so shy. We had to dim the lights and we asked our patient if her son was scared of the dark, she said he would be fine. We dimmed the lights and the kid BOLTED! I lost it. I couldn't stop laughing. Once we finished, she started tearing. She gives my colleague a hug, looks at me and goes "come give me a cuddle..". I told her to leave before i started crying.

8 months in, the warm fuzzy feeling just as strong...

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