lexington...

okay home from lexington, i think. drunk and tired. need sleep. have to work tmrw.

i just yelled at tim. on msn, so not really yelling, the emotion would have been lost. i told him to get his fucking shit together and get his bony arse out of the rut that its in. he is down. but reality is, his problems are nothing. so what if you don't have a uni degree. its a piece of paper. means shit all. it doesnt make you a better person. it gets you a job, and thats all, and even then, anyone can get a job. and you don't need a boyfriend to validate your own existence. i go to work and i am surrounded by people who have shit, and i mean real SHIT on their plate and they are dealing with it. it shits me when people complain to me about the crappy little things when they have no perspective or understanding of the shit they COULD be going through. i am guilty of that though. losing sight. when i am confronted with a problem, its there. its the like a brick wall and i can't walk through or past it. i get caught up on it. sometimes i need to step back and look at myself in the mirror and realise how fucking lucky i am, not matter how shitty life is around me.