calmness

for the first time in a week i am feeling particularly calm. so calm in fact, that i can't sleep. oh dear god i start work in 4 hours.

its a cool summer night and its too hot in my room, thank god i'm not upstairs. if only i could sleep outside in the backyard. i really would if there weren't bugs, rats and possums. i'd get eaten alive out there...

the past month or two has been somewhat uneventful for me, but so very dramatic for those around me. and as usual, their problems and dramas rub off on me. not that my friends force the drama onto me, but i just seem to take it on, their dramas become my dramas. when there is a fight, i feel uneasy; a breakup, i feel disappointed. its not that i sympathise with them, its just my own reaction and feeling to their own emotions. but for some reason, tonight i feel different. i only feel calmness...

maybe its because all the drama has come to an end for now.

we'll see.