i feel like crying. its been a while. its like a dam. i don't want to cry. i have no reason to cry. i don't know why i want to cry. i think i've forgotten how to cry. lets see how many times i can put 'to cry' into a sentence...

end of year is fast approaching. in about 6 weeks time i'll be a fully qualified radiation therapist. i'll have my own responsibilities. I do have my own responsibilities now, but it means there will no longer be someone to check over my work. well there will, but there will only be 2 people checking over my work instead of 3.

i fucked up imma's dress. i feel bad. and i'm too weak to go back to the dry cleaners and demand something to be done about it. i know if i confront them they will just go "too bad...not our problem", and i'll give them a little frowny face and go "oh...are you sure?". i almost feel ashamed that i can stand up for my own friend. when will i be able to fight for myself? even when i get upset with friends, i don't do anything about it, and then of course nothing gets changed. i continue to get upset, and then it eats away at me, until i no longer have a friend. i'm starting to hate myself because of it.

fuck i'm late.