stripey peter alexanders

im restless. my sleep was fairly undisturbed, apart from the need to piss a waterfall every fricken half hour. i opened my eyes, noticed my pyjamas on a boy. my first reaction was that i was having an out of body experience - fuck my arse has gotten small and perky. the confusion dissipated and i realised it was just a friend sharing a bed with me.

im anxious. i applied/applying for a property on high street. i love the place. but im scared to get my hopes up. too many times i've expected too much and been disappointed. better to keep the expectations low, i'm not strong enough to deal with disappointment.

many friends don't understand the situation i'm in. i say im homeless. they say i'm not, that i'm welcome in their home anytime. to me home has never been just a roof over my head. theres more to it than that.

moving in with imma. gorgeous girl. god bless her. i'm looking forward to it. the whole moving process has been a tough road, with both of us feeling rather frustrated at times. it may get tougher. but, one thing i've learnt about imma, her heart is always in the right place. as friends, we've grown together in an interesting manner. when we first met, i think she thought i was the quiet boy who just tagged along. that changed one night at onesix. after a short night out, imma, dean and myself retired into the bathroom where dean passed out around the toilet and imma and i polished off a bottle of red. we sat chatting and smoking and we both realised we were more alike than originally thought. at summadayze we partied hard and we realised we were both party people at heart; she even said she never would have thought i was such a party boy. her approach to friends is like my own. like myself, she holds a lot of respect for friendships, which often leads to disappointment, but then the disappointment really weeds out the good friends from the rest. shes a needy girl, im a needy boy, her company will be good. there will be much more drama, frustration and disappointment ahead for the both of us, but we can handle it.