hmmm

At work on friday, we were discussing my colleagues uni subjects. This ad came up in the conversation (shes studying health promotion).

Reminds me of the time I was telling people "I had to blow in his mouth to get him off".

Funny thing was, my colleague, innocent as she is, didn't see the crude dirty aspect of the slogan (not that it would have been crude back then). She was going "you'd get a slap for blowing smoke in someone's face these days". I kinda stopped laughing when she said that. Kinda felt like one of those moments where you are laughing at your own joke and no one else is laughing at all.

Well. I just got back from dinner with brad and dean. Lovely they are. I didn't say much over dinner. I don't know why. Too much talking in my head, not enough talking out loud. I think its that time of the year/month/lunar cycle (whatever) for me. I get all love-y and I feel like I've got so much love to give but no one to give it to. So, over dinner i was thinking about how i could put all this energy to use - knit a friend a scarfe? bake a cake for someone?. Then my mind started wandering. Like it is now. I need a dog or a boy. Or a child. I think a dog would be the smart option. Someone or something that would just take my love without feeling like they need to give anything back, except their love of course. I need to be loved too. But now I realise that this feeling will only last a few days. Then i'll be over it then there will be no need for a dog, boy or small child. I'll be happy just being me with lots of love to give to me.